I’m so tired, you know what I mean?
The brain says “push yourself” or “stop being so lazy” but the body says “rest” and “take a break”.
The brain is very often not satisfied with the extent of work the body has put in for the day. It says “you didn’t get to clean the toilet” or “you didn’t vacuum the house, what a disgrace” and “it was a good day today BUT you didn’t get to wash the dishes”.
See, my brain is often set on “critical parent mode”. What I do will never be good enough for my (critical) parent.
Fighting the critical parent is very tiring. It is like having a mini war inside my head.
Taking time out for myself by just doing nothing is a big “no no” for the critical parent. I am “wasting time” and “my life is slipping away” and my all time favourite “you’ll never get anywhere in life”.
Fighting the critical parent is not the only war going on inside my head either. There is “what is he REALLY doing today” and “who is he REALLY with” and “you’re going to have a busy day at work tomorrow” and “oh, it’s Monday tomorrow, what a drag”. There’s also “you’ll never get through this sexual abuse stuff” and “your family are talking behind your back” and “you’ll never get off this medication”.
With all this brain activity, is it any wonder we get so tired? Find it hard to get out of bed? Can’t pick up the vacuum cleaner or just plain don’t want to go out?
If you know what I’m talking about then lets join forces and cut ourselves some slack.
We have all been through and are going through a lot. It’s time to show ourselves some compassion and understanding. Wouldn’t we say the same for someone else in our situation? Hell yeah.
Today it is OK to give ourselves permission to do nothing. We are not going to wilt away and die, we are not going to lose that big opportunity and we are not going to eventuate into nothing if we just take a break.
There is a high probability that when I am on my death bed one day I won’t be scolding myself for not vacuuming the house – I’ll be scolding myself for not doing all the things I wanted to accomplish in my life!
Let us comfort our inner child and tell them that a break is OK, they are allowed to rest.
Our inner child is worth it, they ARE important, they ARE precious, they ARE loved.
The guilt of our critical parent will break us if we allow it to.
Today I will do what my inner child wants to do, I will not do any chores.
I will bake, watch some TV and pat my dogs.
The only person that can tell me I’m not allowed is ME.
Watch out for that….