I know very little about Amy Winehouse but when I read of her death and reports that she had been a drinker, drug taker and self harmer, I wondered what was causing her so much pain. So I took the time to take a look at what had been reported on her family of origin over [...]
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Amy Winehouse – Her Pain
Posted in Addiction, Coping Mechanisms, Dysfunctional Behavior, Relationships, Self Harm, Self Love, Suicide, Thoughts, tagged Abadonment, Affair, alcoholism, Amy Winehouse death, AmyWinehouse, Back to Black, betrayal, childhood, daddys girl, Divorce, drugs, emotionally unavailable, mitch winehouse, parents, Rehab on July 24, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Running on Empty
Posted in 12 Step, Codependency, Depression, Relationships, SAnon, Self Harm, Self Love, Suicide, Thoughts, tagged ACOA, adult child, alanon, alcoholic home, alcoholism, Alone, codependency, Depression, Inner Child, isolation, loneliness, sadness, SAnon, Self Harm, self love, stuck on April 2, 2011 | 7 Comments »
As an adult child of an alcoholic I often feel so alone in this world. Nobody understands me, nobody gets me, nobody will feel the pain and sadness I feel inside. Imagine a car stalled in the middle of a major highway and all the other cars whizzing by, not noticing it’s there. It wants some help, so badly [...]
The Electric Pencil Sharpener
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Codependency, Coping Mechanisms, Dysfunctional Behavior, Relationships, Self Harm, Self Love, tagged 12 step programs, ACOA, adult child, co addiction, codependency, Coping mechanisms, dysfunctional behavior, dysfunctional families, fixing others, Inner Child, Love Addiction, meeting needs, People pleasing, self esteem, Self Harm, self love, sex addiction, suicidal thoughts, what is normal on March 11, 2011 | 3 Comments »
A fellow Program member shared something with me that has been very valuable when I find myself unable to control dysfunctional coping mechanisms. They said “A normal person wouldn’t put their finger in an electric pencil sharper because they know they will get hurt but people like us do it time and time again”. I [...]
Sex & Love Addiction Help
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Anxiety, bipolar disorder, Books, Codependency, Depression, Medication, mental illness, SAnon, Self Harm, Self Help/Support Groups, Thoughts, tagged Amazon.com, American Psychiatric Association, Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Love Addiction, love addiction help, love addiction suicide, love addicts, love avoidants, love fantasies, Obsessive–compulsive disorder, Patrick Carnes, romance fantasies, SA, SAnon, sex addict, sex addiction suicide, Sex Addicts Anonymous, Sexual addiction, sexual fantasies, sexual thoughts, Sexuality, SLAA, Substance dependence, Twelve-step program, unwanted fantasies on September 11, 2010 | 2 Comments »
As I suffer from generalised anxiety disorder and various OCD symptoms such as the need to have things orderly, clean and perfect, I was wondering whether love and sex addiction is classed a form of OCD. Some experts believe that sexual addiction is literally an addiction, directly analogous to alcohol and drug addictions. Other experts believe [...]
Suicidal Ideations, PMT & Antipsychotics
Posted in bipolar disorder, Depression, Medication, mental illness, Self Harm, Suicide, Thoughts, tagged benzodiazepine overdose, benzodiazepines, benzos, irregular periods & suicide, Jenny Birdsey, natural progesterone, natural progesterone cream, NPAN, overdose, PMS, PMT, progesterone deficiency, Self Harm, suicidal ideations, Suicide, suicide and PMT, valium overdose on September 1, 2010 | 1 Comment »
What’s the point of writing a Blog if I can’t talk about the “hard stuff”? Should I gloss my posts over so they don’t trigger people? Yes, maybe a little but there’s no point in hiding the truth from the world because the world won’t understand where it went wrong if people like me fudge [...]
Zeldox/Geodon/Ziprasidone – After Effects
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, bipolar disorder, Medication, mental illness, Self Harm, Suicide, Thoughts, Zeldox Ziprasidone Geodon, tagged after effects Zeldox, agoraphobia, Antipsychotic, antipsychotic suicide, anxiety, Anxiety disorder, compulsive overdosing Zeldox, compulsive suicide Geodon, compulsive suicide Zeldox, Depression, Drug, Drug overdose, geodon, Geodon memory loss, long term effects Zeldox, Obsessive–compulsive disorder, side effects Geodon, side effects Zeldox, suicidal idealations Zeldox, suicidal thoughts Zeldox, Suicide, Zeldox, Zeldox Agoraphobia, Zeldox Anxiety, Zeldox memory loss, Zeldox suicide, ziprasidone, ziprasidone hydrochloride on August 31, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
There is absolutely ZILCH information on the net about what people experience AFTER they have finished taking Zeldox. Of course studies indicate that long term use of this drug can cause tardive diskinesia (long term tremor) and heart issues but apart from that I have found nothing else or no other articles on what consumers [...]
WOW looking back now at all my posts I cannot believe how far I have come!
Posted in Depression, mental illness, Self Harm, Suicide, Zeldox Ziprasidone Geodon, tagged antipsychotics, geodon, overcoming depression, overcoming mental illness, overdose, Zeldox, Zeldox suicide on July 31, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I cannot believe I wrote the last post I wrote in Feb 09. Reading my content shocks me. It reminds me how terrible mental illness is to experience. I never ever want to go back there. I am not like that anymore and never want to be that way again. It saddens me to see [...]
Sharing With You
Posted in bipolar disorder, Depression, mental illness, Self Harm, Suicide, tagged bipolar disorder, contributing factors to suicide, Depression, overdosing, suicidal thoughts, Suicide, suicide prevention, suicide warning signs on September 6, 2008 | 6 Comments »
What a night i’ve had. I’m writing this post in the hope that no one in my family reads it. I’ve made the mistake of telling them my blog address and every now and then they go to it to check out what i’ve been writing. I’ve thought about closing my blog down due to [...]
Why Do People Suicide
Posted in Depression, Self Harm, tagged alcohol, cannabis, cannabis and depression, cannabis and suicide, cannabis smoking, Depression, drug use and depression, drug use and suicide, drugs, Marijuana, marijuana and depression, marijuana and suicide, passive cannabis smoking, Suicide, Why do people suicide on July 12, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Most of the time people who suicide are very sick with depression or one of the other types of depressive illnesses, which occur when the chemicals in a person’s brain get out of balance or become disrupted. Healthy people do not suicide. A person who has depression does not think like a typical person who [...]
Bereavement Support After Suicide
Posted in Self Harm, tagged bereavement, bereavement support, Suicide, suicide loss, suicide support, support after suicide on July 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
You may know someone who has just lost a loved one and your first thought upon hearing the news is probably going to be ”Oh no, how tragic, poor so and so”. Your second thought will probably be that you must go to them, to comfort them and help them. Your third thought would be “What am [...]
After Suicide
Posted in Self Harm, tagged after suicide, death by suicide, destigmatising suicide, If Only, life after suicide, stigmatising suicide, Suicide on July 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
When someone ends their own life, it brings the life of one human being to a sad end. The act of suicide also creates another group of people, those left behind. These are people who loved and cared about the person who passed away, who continue to do so, and who must now become part [...]
Survivors of Suicide
Posted in Self Harm, tagged Books, Depression, If Only, life after suicide, Self Harm, Suicide, survivors of suicide on July 6, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Writing about suicide seems to bring an influx of people to my blog, it’s great in that respect but sad in another. I am currently reading a book called “If Only – Personal Stories of Loss Through Suicide” edited by Belinda Woolley. It is a collection of deeply personal stories from people who have lost [...]
Dear Family of Mine
Posted in Self Harm, tagged Dear Family of Mine, death, family, poetry, Suicide on June 29, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I found this poem in a book called If Only, about personal stories of loss through suicide. It touched my heart so I thought I would share it with you. Dear family of mine, I want you to see I never wanted this sadness for you or me I longed to be happy, carefree and [...]
Self Harm/Suicide
Posted in Self Harm, tagged Depression, Schizophrenia, Self Harm, Suicide on June 22, 2008 | 1 Comment »
What a last couple of days i’ve had. I haven’t posted on here of late because of my “rapid cycling”. Up and down like a yo yo. I self harm myself by overdosing on tablets. Self harm is a behaviour which can occur in many different disorders and situations. Self harm may be an attempt [...]
