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Follow Me On Facebook
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, tagged 12 Step Program, adult children of alcoholics, codependency, Facebook, Facebook Page, Inner Child, mental health, Sexual addiction, Twelve-step program on October 2, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve created a Rapid Cycling Facebook Page. Feel free to stop on by to pick up some healthy tips and tricks to building a better life I’ll be sharing things on 12 Step Recovery, Codependency, Sex, Love & Fantasy Addiction, Co-Addiction, Mental Health, Inner Child, Adult Children of Alcoholics and other Dysfunctional Families and some [...]
Amy Winehouse – Her Pain
Posted in Addiction, Coping Mechanisms, Dysfunctional Behavior, Relationships, Self Harm, Self Love, Suicide, Thoughts, tagged Abadonment, Affair, alcoholism, Amy Winehouse death, AmyWinehouse, Back to Black, betrayal, childhood, daddys girl, Divorce, drugs, emotionally unavailable, mitch winehouse, parents, Rehab on July 24, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I know very little about Amy Winehouse but when I read of her death and reports that she had been a drinker, drug taker and self harmer, I wondered what was causing her so much pain. So I took the time to take a look at what had been reported on her family of origin over [...]
There’s a Hole in My Bucket
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Codependency, Coping Mechanisms, Dysfunctional Behavior, Self Help/Support Groups, Self Love, Thoughts, tagged ACA, ACOA, addiction, adult child, alcoholic home, co addiction, dysfunctional childhood, dysfunctional family, Fantasy Addiction, God, higher power, Hole in My Soul, Inner Child, Love Addiction, mental health, self love, sex addiction, There's a Hole in My Bucket, Twelve-step program on June 17, 2011 | 1 Comment »
“There’s a hole in my bucket dear Liza dear Liza, there’s a hole in my bucket dear Liza, a hole”. My grandmother used to sing that children’s song when I was young but little did I know I would have a hole in my bucket (my soul) when I grew up because my caregivers were so focussed on each other [...]
Zeldox/Geodon (Ziprasidone) – Users’ Experiences
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Medication, mental illness, Thoughts, Zeldox Ziprasidone Geodon, tagged acute anxiety, Antipsychotic, choking geodon, choking zeldox, choking ziprasidone, Food and Drug Administration, gagging sensation anxiety, geodon, geodon addiction, hand tremor, head tremor, leg tremor, long term antipsychotic use, lump in throat, Mental disorder, mental health, Pharmaceutical drug, side effects antipsychotics, side effects Geodon, side effects Zeldox, tardive diskinesia, Zeldox, zeldox addiction, Zeldox Anxiety, zeldox tremor, ziprasidone, ziprasidone hydrochloride on May 26, 2011 | 2 Comments »
The information and opinions I have previously posted on the antipsychotic Zeldox (Ziprasidone) (also called Geodon) have been the most popular posts on my blog by far therefore I’ve decided to publish a link to all three posts so searchers can view the maximum amount of information and comments from other users of this drug to aid their research. It is [...]
I Am Alone
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Codependency, Coping Mechanisms, Depression, Poetry, Relationships, SAnon, Self Love, Thoughts, tagged 12 Step Program, ACOA, addiction, adult child, alcoholic home life, alcoholism, childhood grief, codependency, codependent relationships, Depression, dysfunctional families, God, Inner Child, internal misery, poetry, sadness, SAnon, self love on April 26, 2011 | 3 Comments »
There is nobody here to share my sorrow There is nobody here to cut the ball and chain of my responsibilities, my chores To allow me to run and play like a carefree child, to think of happy things and make daisy chains in the sun When will someone hear my cry? You walk away and leave [...]
The Electric Pencil Sharpener
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Codependency, Coping Mechanisms, Dysfunctional Behavior, Relationships, Self Harm, Self Love, tagged 12 step programs, ACOA, adult child, co addiction, codependency, Coping mechanisms, dysfunctional behavior, dysfunctional families, fixing others, Inner Child, Love Addiction, meeting needs, People pleasing, self esteem, Self Harm, self love, sex addiction, suicidal thoughts, what is normal on March 11, 2011 | 3 Comments »
A fellow Program member shared something with me that has been very valuable when I find myself unable to control dysfunctional coping mechanisms. They said “A normal person wouldn’t put their finger in an electric pencil sharper because they know they will get hurt but people like us do it time and time again”. I [...]
Dear John – Dysfunctional Childhood?
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, mental illness, Thoughts, tagged 12 Step Program, AA, Abusive Childhood, addiction, adult children, adult children of alcoholics, alcoholics anonymous, alcoholism, Anxiety disorder, childhood depression, depression and alcoholism, dysfunctional childhood, dysfunctional thinking, Health, Major depressive disorder, mental health, mental illness on December 28, 2010 | 3 Comments »
I received an email yesterday and thought I’d share it with you together with my reply: “Dear X, My name is X. I am almost certain now that I was born with a mental illness. I was diagnosed when I was thirty-five I am now forty-one. I realised something was wrong when I was sixteen,and so began my personal war,I have [...]
Stay Away from Mentally Ill?
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Anxiety, bipolar disorder, Depression, mental illness, Relationships, Schizophrenia, Self Help/Support Groups, Thoughts, tagged agressive friends, agressive mentally ill, anxiety, bipolar disorder, Borderline personality disorder, depressed person, destructive mental illness, detaching from mentally ill, Disorders, Health, helping mentally ill, how to help mentally ill, major depressive illness, manipulative friends, manipulative mentally ill, Mental disorder, mental health, mental illness, mentally ill friend, Support group on October 17, 2010 | 2 Comments »
I recently responded to a request for experience strength and hope in dealing with toxic families who have mental illnesses and possible personality disorders. This is what I said: “I have a fair bit of experience with mental illness as it runs in my family of origin (depression, anxiety, bipolar, schizophrenia) plus I have [...]
Codependency & Loss of Identity
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Codependency, Relationships, SAnon, Self Love, Thoughts, tagged ACOA, addictive relationships, adult children, alanon, alcoholic children, alcoholic home life, codependency, codependent relationships, dependency, family, finding self, Health, loss of self, SAnon, self identity, self love, unhealthy relationships on September 29, 2010 | 3 Comments »
Have you ever heard anyone say they don’t know who they are anymore? Losing your identity is losing sight of what you like doing, what you think or what makes you happy for example. At this time in my life I don’t know who I am or what I like (to an extent) and I [...]
My First Codependency Meeting
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Anxiety, Codependency, Depression, mental illness, Thoughts, tagged 12 Step Program, agoraphobia, alcoholic home life, anxiety, CODA, codependency, codependent behaviour, Depression, Disorders, Health, Major depressive disorder, mental health, self love, unselfish behaviour on September 25, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
Went to my very first codependency 12 Step meeting yesterday. I was very surprised about how much I related to people’s shares and the readings and how much of my behaviour was codependent behaviour. Who would have thought that the need to come bearing gifts when I visited people was codependent behaviour. Apparently the reasoning behind always needing [...]
Sex & Love Addiction Help
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Anxiety, bipolar disorder, Books, Codependency, Depression, Medication, mental illness, SAnon, Self Harm, Self Help/Support Groups, Thoughts, tagged Amazon.com, American Psychiatric Association, Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Love Addiction, love addiction help, love addiction suicide, love addicts, love avoidants, love fantasies, Obsessive–compulsive disorder, Patrick Carnes, romance fantasies, SA, SAnon, sex addict, sex addiction suicide, Sex Addicts Anonymous, Sexual addiction, sexual fantasies, sexual thoughts, Sexuality, SLAA, Substance dependence, Twelve-step program, unwanted fantasies on September 11, 2010 | 2 Comments »
As I suffer from generalised anxiety disorder and various OCD symptoms such as the need to have things orderly, clean and perfect, I was wondering whether love and sex addiction is classed a form of OCD. Some experts believe that sexual addiction is literally an addiction, directly analogous to alcohol and drug addictions. Other experts believe [...]
Control – My Best Friend!
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Anxiety, Codependency, Thoughts, tagged addiction, alcoholic home life, alcoholism, children and control, codependency, codependency games, control, control and addiction, control and alcoholism, control and codependency, control and rebel, control freak, control issues, controlling parent, controlling personality, family, growing up in an alcoholic home, Health, Home, Parenting, perfectionism, Substance abuse, Twelve-step program on September 7, 2010 | 1 Comment »
Annabelle’s comment in my previous post reminded me about my best friend “control” who visits me on a regular basis in various ways, shapes and forms. Control and I have grown up together but unfortunately friend, it’s time to go. I’m trying to get rid of you but it’s easier said than done. You don’t [...]
Matthew Newton – Mentally Ill or Drug Addict?
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Mental Health News, mental illness, Self Help/Support Groups, Thoughts, tagged AA, alanon, alcoholics anonymous, Australia, Bert Newton, brooke satchwell, domestic violence, drug use, Electroconvulsive Therapy, family violence, Health, Ice, Ice pipe, marijuana and mental illness, marijuana psychosis, Matthew Newton, mental health, narcotics, Narcotics Anonymous, Patti Newton, rachael taylor, scizophrenia, violence women, X Factor on September 5, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
It never ceases to amaze me about the things journalists come up with in the tabloids let alone the lengths families go to to save their reputation and that of their loved one who has acted inappropriately. Matthew Newton, son of Bert Newton – Australian icon. Latest article if you are not familiar with the [...]
Tired of Codependency
Posted in 12 Step, Addiction, Books, Codependency, SAnon, Thoughts, tagged 12 Step Program, addiction, addictive relationships, alcoholic home life, coaddict, coaddiction, CODA, codependency, codependency games, Facing Love Addiction, growing up in an alcoholic home, Love Addiction, Love Avoidant, Pia Mellody, SAA, SAnon, sex addiction, SLAA, unhealthy relationships on August 31, 2010 | 2 Comments »
I’m tired of being a codependent, I’m tired of the same old games/scenarios. They get us nowhere, it pushes us back further into an abyss. Last night I picked up the book “Facing Love Addiction” by Pia Mellody which my counsellor recommended to me. I was absolutely gobsmacked at the games two codependents play with each other (unknowingly). [...]
Phone Phobia
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, mental illness, Self Help/Support Groups, Thoughts, tagged agoraphobia, communication anxiety, communication phobia, email anxiety, email phobia, facing fears, fear, phobia, phone anxiety, phone phobia, technology phobia on August 17, 2010 | 2 Comments »
The more I talk to people the more I see that “phone phobia” is a real issue with mental illness sufferers. It’s probably more on the anxiety end of the scale. I am definately phone phobic. I never answer my house phone unless I have pre-arranged a time for someone to ring. The mobile phone [...]
More on Zeldox, Ziprasidone, Geodon After Effects – Anger
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, bipolar disorder, Medication, mental illness, Thoughts, Zeldox Ziprasidone Geodon, tagged after effects Zeldox, anger, compulsive suicide Geodon, compulsive suicide Zeldox, geodon, Geodon memory loss, God, long term effects Zeldox, medication and anger, mental health, mental illness anger, side effects Geodon, side effects Zeldox, suicidal thoughts Zeldox, Zeldox, Zeldox Agoraphobia, Zeldox Anxiety, Zeldox memory loss, Zeldox suicide, ziprasidone, ziprasidone hydrochloride on September 10, 2009 | 7 Comments »
I forgot to mention in my post below about coming off Zeldox and experiencing anger. The anger started pretty much as soon as the drug was out of my system. I must say I had never experienced this type of anger before in my life. I would virtually “explode” if someone upset me, I would [...]
Zeldox/Geodon/Ziprasidone – After Effects
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, bipolar disorder, Medication, mental illness, Self Harm, Suicide, Thoughts, Zeldox Ziprasidone Geodon, tagged after effects Zeldox, agoraphobia, Antipsychotic, antipsychotic suicide, anxiety, Anxiety disorder, compulsive overdosing Zeldox, compulsive suicide Geodon, compulsive suicide Zeldox, Depression, Drug, Drug overdose, geodon, Geodon memory loss, long term effects Zeldox, Obsessive–compulsive disorder, side effects Geodon, side effects Zeldox, suicidal idealations Zeldox, suicidal thoughts Zeldox, Suicide, Zeldox, Zeldox Agoraphobia, Zeldox Anxiety, Zeldox memory loss, Zeldox suicide, ziprasidone, ziprasidone hydrochloride on August 31, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
There is absolutely ZILCH information on the net about what people experience AFTER they have finished taking Zeldox. Of course studies indicate that long term use of this drug can cause tardive diskinesia (long term tremor) and heart issues but apart from that I have found nothing else or no other articles on what consumers [...]
Zeldox – A Worker’s Anti-Psychotic
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, bipolar disorder, Medication, mental illness, Thoughts, Zeldox Ziprasidone Geodon, tagged anti-psychotic, bipolar disorder, drugs, geodon, Schizophrenia, wonder drug, Zeldox, ziprasidone, ziprasidone hydrochloride on June 26, 2008 | 70 Comments »
I wanted to tell you about a new drug i’m taking called “Zeldox”. It is an anti-psychotic and it’s medical name is ziprasidone hydrochloride. It is predominately used for treatment of Schizophrenia or Bipolar Disorder. After much experimentation with finding the right combination of drugs for me I was introduced to “the wonder drug” from [...]
