I Need Help

I need help. I reach out to people all the time, they just don’t understand or they don’t want to be involved. Some of my friends and family have deserted me. I have pushed my partner away because I have shut down into my own little world because I can’t deal with the pain of reality. He left for work today and didn’t say good bye. I am as low as one can go and just don’t know who to turn to. I reach out to him to solve our relationship problems but I have put him down so often he is not there for me or cannot be there for me.  It seems if I keep going on like this I will eventually crack. I don’t know what sort of help I am looking for. I do see a psychologist but I find it very hard to implement the ideas he provides me with. I must be looking for a quick fix to alleviate the pain. I’ll be searching for a very long time for that i’m sure.